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35,000 Walruses Are All Crowded Together In One Spot — And It Signals Something Ominous

Bookmarks:
The walruses’ plightPanhandler drives a FiatForged DEA Facebook pageExceptional horoscopes update 2014-10-20Battered women, murdered childen

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How I became homeless

This is the second of three posts about entitlement:
07/12 – “Entitlement(s): Attitude and policy”
Today –
“How I became homeless”
07/26 – “When needs are met”

This is a long post. One may want to avail oneself of a navigation resource here.

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I don’t write about easy things.

At this writing, a more immediate question is how I’ve stayed homeless, which has prompted no small amount of anger and depression in recent weeks.  The short answer appears to be that I’ve stayed homeless the same way I became homeless.

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Self-comfort

I have suffered with obsessive-compulsive disorder and genetically-based clinical depression all my life.  I first became medicated for these conditions, with SSRIs, in 1991, and the improvement was so drastic I never wanted to be without those medications again.

On or about December 6, 2015, however, it seemed as if they abruptly became ineffective.  I was not in a position to find a medical doctor competent to change them.  So, on the one hand, I’ve lived with clinical depression from then till now and continuing.  On the other hand, a positive is that in this state I’ve obtained certain insights that I never could have “seen” any other way.

One insight in particular would have changed my entire course in life, had I only learned it as a child.

It occurred in four steps.  The blue block quotes below are excerpts from my diary.  However, I recall that C.S. Lewis referred to diary-keeping as a “time-wasting and foolish practice;” that a diary is, “even for autobiographical purposes,” far less useful than one might suppose.  As to the first two steps below, I lost a good deal of time and effort searching for diary passages that didn’t exist.

In mid-December 2015 …

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Self-management in the face of depression

I am extremely depressed this morning.  This may be a “monthly.”  I find myself hyper-self-critical; ready to take anything someone may say the wrong way; ready to snap.

I’m dealing with various issues in various places that may help explain it, but as opposed to engaging in excuses or blame, I need to deal with what is.

I was in Dunkin’ Donuts at 9:00 and chose to check the library schedule for this week; to chart out what days I would go to the library and what other days I would go to church.

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* 35,000 Walruses Are All Crowded Together In One Spot — And It Signals Something Ominous

Bookmarks:
The walruses’ plightPanhandler drives a FiatForged DEA Facebook pageExceptional horoscopes update 2014-10-20Battered women, murdered childen

Continue reading * 35,000 Walruses Are All Crowded Together In One Spot — And It Signals Something Ominous

* How I became homeless

This is the second of three posts about entitlement:
04/19 – “Entitlement(s): Attitude and policy”
Today –
“How I became homeless”
05/03 – “When needs are met”

This is a long post. One may want to avail oneself of a navigation resource here.

———— ♦ ————

I don’t write about easy things.

At this writing, a more immediate question is how I’ve stayed homeless, which has prompted no small amount of anger and depression in recent weeks.  The short answer appears to be that I’ve stayed homeless the same way I became homeless.

Continue reading * How I became homeless